a lost symphony of wishes and curses

odetopanya @ 2006-10-12T13:22:00

2006-10-12T13:53:53Z

attachment ruins you.

nothing is permament.
things come and go;
they exist, wither and die.
some were remembered, others forgotten.

after all, this is a mad world.

How funny it is to realize that all of us are like magnets
--it's either you get an attraction or repulsion.

...and i'm certain,
pretty certain, that we're both opposite poles.

strange though for both effects were present and i never thought it was in a way possible.

now here...
this isn't about science,
not about laws.

it's about us.
-random variables in a seemingly, orderly experimented universe.

odetopanya @ 2006-10-12T12:41:00

2006-10-12T13:16:32Z

para kang keso.

NAKAKAADIK.

thank you

2006-10-10T12:25:14Z

even if had a rotten apple,
broken guitar string,
mismatched socks,
untalkative raccoon,
fake, dirty chucks,

it won't alter a thing at all.
your time.your words.your smile.

it's all here--
solitary secrets,
perpetual ecstasy of haunting memory.

odetopanya @ 2006-10-02T23:01:00

2006-10-02T16:44:39Z

can i just say. God really loves me. WHAT A DAY. JACKPOT! heehee!

By the way, while we were amidst the uneasy flow of vehicles along cubao, my uncle turned on the am radio. I was feeling so dead sleepy when all of a sudden, it felt like someone have just hitted me with a pan (the one we often see in cartoons when the victim acquires the shape of the object used to attack him). But then, I realized it was just the echoing sound of FOOD RELATED ISSUES. daaaaarn. Food again. bwahahaha. The program tackled issues such as scarce food resources, poverty, food chain/company laws and obesity. These are the things I've learned from it:

1.) Food chains/company are in a way, GREEDY.
                There was this law they implemented by which it prohibited left-over foods to be used for human consumption. We all know that food is essential for mankind. It is a limited resource that we should not take for granted. Now, think of over half or more than half of the population unable to eat a decent meal. If only these left-over foods were distributed to the lower crust instead of just being thrown away, then maybe the scenario might have been different from today.

2.) A new virus related to obesity had been detected.
                      The virus is still under thorough research & observation but its attack was sort of discreet. Hmm.. Something like, it grows under the tissue and becomes poof! a fat that will remain forever as a fat. (now that's annoying x_x)

3.) Eat only what you're body needs.
                      Don't eat more than our body requires. Remember it is a physical and not a psychological or emotional need. OUCH x_x

wet

2006-10-01T14:13:05Z

Notice how the wind left us in the cold- stationary and at times melancholic. The demand for coffee, as what I have observed for the past few weeks, is relatively increasing. It could be due to the weather, perhaps.True enough, we are now in the wet season. The typhoon Milenyo even carved its face unto fields turned wasteland and left the metropolis with one great imprecation of prolonged brown-out. Its puissance brought another chapter of ruin on our state particularly the Bicol region where it poured out most of its destructive strength. Amidst our endless fuss due to intense heat and boredom brought about by loss of power supply, are people nearly dying from hunger and homelessness. Some people (like rk/brats) just keep on yammering, letting their id dominate in the whole matter. Their dependence to technology seem to be more apparent this time. Well then, HELLOOO?! It's not even close to the havoc poeple from the north are experiencing right now. sheesh.

If there's something Milenyo failed to defeat, that's the fire igniting the NPAs. I have read an article posted in the Philippine Star regarding a bus burnt by the said group. It was annoying of course. I mean, it's nonsense. Well, I am no genius when it comes to this kind of stuff (but I do have a little background about this group of rebels) and waht I'm doing is simply reacting. Violence seem to be their answer; a wake up call maybe. I understand that they needed to pursue their interests. But it's not just all about them and what they think is right. Face it. It's history already. They're just staining their reputation even more and they're nevertheless hyped as terroris already. Why not just get a life? -a better one far from this crap.

I am bored. Pardon my thoughts.

awts

2006-10-01T06:47:32Z

I have severe back pains and it's making me uber paranoid.
Why?
First, it could be that I'm developing some sort of an ailment and the next thing I know, I'll be saying hello to the operating room.

Second, it could be that I am experiencing a paranormal nuisance. Think about the movie shutter. x_x I've been through that experience TWICE.

or third, it could be that I'm just imagining all this stuffs.
weird.

odetopanya @ 2006-09-29T20:19:00

2006-09-29T13:27:10Z

I once asked my friend if she believes in God and she answered me with a nod.
Then I asked her again what's her reason for believing.

Her answer was simple and sharp that it made me shut up.
"...because God answers my prayers"

I am totally moved by that answer. I felt a sense of guilt, like that of a traitor. Or perhaps, a prodigal daughter. She's right afterall. God never ignored me. He answered my prayers and was really good at giving me His little surprises. I am His precious child and I'll be forever thankful for that. To why I let myself sunk deep in logic, was one terrible mistake. Now, I've got all the reason to believe; reasons far beyond logic. I won't dwell in to answers. It does not exist anyway. I live. I have my faith back. That's it.

As much as I'd like to convince everyone, it was pretty impossible. Honestly, I can't even find the right words to say how much I feel for Him.

But I hope someday, I'd be able to share it with sniper x_x

"And I will sing for You always
'Cause in Your presence God is where I wanna stay"

bluff

2006-09-29T10:51:48Z

I..I..I..

I have a growing obsession for chocolate marble waffle. YUM!

I failed my first introfi quiz and apparently the second one. DARN those ridiculous names and stupid memory of mine >.<

I saw him only ONCE this week and WOW! i think he's gonna marry the arcade machine someday.

I shooed boredom brought by the irking brown-out by acknowledging the existence of our telephone. It freaked me out in the middle of the night though, when someone in the extension line sort of whispered an eerie sound which made me eeeeeeekk and accidentally left my chuwin hanging on the other line x_x

GREAT.

odetopanya @ 2006-09-25T22:33:00

2006-09-25T14:34:09Z

i'm listening to CCF's cd right now.(the one i borrowed from mewypie) :D btw, thanks dear!
holy frog! it was totally moving and amazing. HANDS DOWN.

i'm inlove with my Savior,
your Savior,
our Savior.

pigging out

2006-09-23T00:05:59Z

Who would have thought that yesterday morning, I ate three meals within four hours?
and take note: I AM NOT SATISFIED.

tsk.tsk.

Maybe I am a piglet monster trapped in a mesomorph's body
(I believe I'm a mesomorph)
sheesh.

this is me.

2006-09-21T10:06:47Z

-@ Mcdo eating catsup 9-10-06-

Hi! My name is Majet.
No, I'm not drunk
or retarted perhaps.
I am sane, believe me.
(though my face shows the exact opposite)

HAHAHAHA!

What's a normal face afterall?

vandalism

2006-09-19T13:12:46Z

thou shall not write silly things ON THE FLOOR when you are wasted.

compromise

2006-09-17T13:51:27Z

you can't always have everything that you want.
Why? It's because not everything you want, wants you back.

Life's not a a one shot deal for the struggle and its prize.
Swindlers do exist- a lot of them.
...and so are fools.

odetopanya @ 2006-09-16T22:52:00

2006-09-16T15:19:49Z

Pace on the grass baked by the sun and feel the earth with its rotten secrets,
meek and quiet.
Let the wind whisper its sorrow and crush your spirit like a paper fed on the shredder.

You think you deserve it then you regret, despising the mud in between your toes.
curses on which you're basically good at, slip through falls of hatred.

It's your fault anyway.

ehe

2006-09-14T13:19:12Z

I'm wondering if I can I take my Italian lessons without getting sabaw in my majors... but how can I even master Italian if my grammar skills in English is somewhat...err? deteriorating? HAHA. see? I can't even find the right word for that. schoopid. :))

I'm a little teapot, short and stout. hahaha. cute :D

grooo

2006-09-13T15:41:17Z

I'm suppose to be reading my handful of handouts NOW but apparently I am a lazy student. :))

Sheesh.
I felt like an idiot after introfi class, intensely suffering from a damaged brain damage. :)) labo. (take note: orientation palang x_x) I shall avenge someday! >:)
Un Chien Andalou was so damn surreal that I almost drowned on my own pool of kasabawan. Gaaaaaaaaaa. >.< I know it has a lot of sense, although the scenes may appear to be illogical (like, what's the connection between a sea urchin and a body hair?). rawrness. My problem is, I don't make sense or to save myself somehow from complete absurdity, I lack sense. I expected it anyway. duh, it's a work a a genius. :))

Kumbaga sa House of the Dead 4, "shake it loose." bwahahaha!
labooooo. see? >:)

***

yay. CHUWIN I MUST REMIND YOU TO PREPARE ONE HUNDRED BUCKS.
bwahahahaha!
I shall win!

odetopanya @ 2006-09-12T21:34:00

2006-09-12T14:00:53Z

Sometimes, life has an odd way of getting things even.

***
While thinking for a motto to recite during filipi3, I happen to formulate this thought:
"There are no answers, only questions." It's more of a philosophical statement though. :p

HIGH

2006-09-11T15:26:18Z

TODAY IS OUR FIRST DAY HIGH.

well, that's pretty LITERAL for me and my chuwin... and apparently, with piyar. :D
we went to green place and ordered isoprophyl alcohol. nah i'm mkidding! bwahahaha!
pardon me for i'm quite tipsy :))

it was SOLID fun hangin' there with my "drinking mates". I badly miss our drinking sessions and tipsy moments. After finishing a bottle, I asked Piyar to accompany me inside the washroom. Gawdness! unfortunately, she wasn't able to see the lock and left the door...well, unlocked o.O We were just surprised when a guy suddenly /accidentally tried opening the door Sheesh! We ended up laughing inside the washroom for a minute and it made me wanna vomit. hahaha! After a while, Piyar left to meet Ky outside and I was left with my chuwin, Cam. Since we were tipsy already (after consuming several bottles), we didn't realized that we were already conversing in English. Hahaha! That's weird! Worse, I texted someone I should've not texted. BIG MISTAKE. Oh well. no room for regrets. It happened already hahaha! basta it was a happy night. sobrang benta :)) Kuya Gerby even dropped by the place and drank a bottle of beer. It could've been great though if he came a bit earlier ;P

Hahaha. I'm getting sleepy and dehydrated.
Imma drink water!
Love you girls!

KILL

2006-09-10T15:52:47Z

KILL.

KILL.

KILL.

*ting*
"don't kill" (ex- A.M's voice)

x files

2006-09-10T15:33:47Z

I felt very much fine and happy given the fact that I made it to Bessie's (Jessa) 18th birthday last night. She's a special friend to me and I don't want to miss one significant day of her life. Thank God. :D

***
I watched a replay of XXX on Studio 23 by which they covered an investigation about a cemetery in Quezon City. The footages that were shown revealed scattered remains of dead people including their bones, rotten flesh and even tattered clothes by which majority were placed inside a sack and were piled in just any corner, mounting for days. And take note, in that case they are still considered the "lucky ones". wtf right? In some extreme cases, the remains were found basically anywhere in the cemetery that it's even possible for you to step on it not realizing it's a bone. To hell with those irresponsible officials. Gawdness. Hello??? Talk about "RESPECT" you evil mosnters! rawrness. It made me wanna kill. Seriously.

T_T To be continued.

ugh. I can't continue this post anymore. Too bad.
I suddenly felt a terrible pain in my head as if someone was hitting me a hammer for the nth time. Damn that post I have just read. >.< It's the reason why!

to model or to not?

2006-09-07T13:54:58Z

Yesterday, we (me,cam&piyar) went to my mwahmee mewy's beautiful yellah house. Since, I'm such a lazy person to recount everything that happened, I'll just put it in three words: movie,food & photoshoot. On that day also, we officially devoted ourselves to the undeniably gorgeous, Mr. Strait. Fine, this may sound pretty stupid and fanatical but I don't care anyway. bwahahaha! This is just a "once in a blue moon" situation, mind you. Haha! However, despite all the fun and laughter, I found myself aching in pain soon after I reached home. Holy fly! My feet hurt like hell and I blame myself for wearing an approximately 4 inches high heeled shoes during our "photoshoot". And apparently, I badly miss my slippers. Haaaaay! I never thought modeling could be as hard as solving an algebraic equation (that is, if you find algebra as such pain in the ass). It's not just all about glamour and entertainment. It's a lot of hardwork. I realized that I can still be SABAW in this kind of activity. It's hard to pose, did you know that? Hahaha. Enough. I think I'm barely making any sense.

Sorry. hahaha!
By the way, mylasalle's server is down again. It's just sooooo annoying.
***

I don't know why it's hard for me to admit that I miss you.
Err...
Apparently, I just did :|

snipermode

2006-09-05T13:34:38Z

five days to go and i'll be having a new home. THE DLSU LIBRARY. solid. I'll be spending my loooooooooooooong break inside the library. Here are some of the probable things I'll be doing there:

1. sleep
2. read (nerd shield)
3. write
4. look around & stalk haha!
5. eat secretly

I'm quite excited. It's nice to be alone. Haha! Sniper mode na itoooooo haha!

...OR

maybe I can spend my break playing arcade games at UM. bwahahahaha!=))
what do you think?

*commercial*
I thought it was monday. DAMN IT! I WASN'T ABLE TO WATCH ONE TREE HILL >.<
stupidmajet.

nothing

2006-09-05T10:38:31Z

it's another bum's life afternoon here at my room.
welcome to my oh so boring life.

sometimes, I just wanted to teleport to the moon where I can build my own kingdom or perhaps to pluto where anyone, except me will be frozen up to death. (Hot stuffs will get to survive though.) *evil laughter*

high

2006-09-04T17:31:45Z

2 cases of "TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE SITUATIONS PART I"

Case1: "Too good to be true but TRUE"
My grades turned out to be unexpectedly...GREAT I mean, gawd O.O Am I just lucky or simply deserving? Hahaha! Unfortunately, there's no chance for me to be included in the dl this term because I FAILED a .5 unit,non-academic course just because I'm 15 minutes late. orient2 sucks. hahaha! But I'm still happy with the results.

Case2:"Too good to be true that's why it's NOT TRUE"
Warren's character is almost perfect for me. He's just so...HOT (literally&figuratively) But the thing is, he does not exists. Too bad. raarness. He reminded me of someone though *evil laughter*

to mr afi:"i am your ice princess; minus the crown, minus the throne."

***
Every moment spent with my chuwin is SOLID FUN.

i've got mail

2006-09-04T16:45:21Z

Yesterday, is one sweet, happy day.
I got an email message from my little sister and this is what she wrote:

Dear Ate kanny
How was your holiday.
So do you like school or holiday.
Me I like holiday.
Do you have any news.
Guia

aaaaww. cuteness :D
I love my little sister.INCEST.lol.i'm just kidding!

when i was her age, i'm an alien to technology :))
You know why? It's bec. I'm too busy ranting on how pale my dolls looked like that I ended up coloring their faces using MARKER PENS >.< It was terrible and it freaked me out. Hahahaha!